She has decided again…
This past two months Maria has been going back and forth between the two decision. What I thought was her final decision turns out to not be her final decision. She has decided to stay in Madison next year and continue to work on our relationship.
It’s been really cool to see how God had guide her though this process, even though she still does not have a clear answer from God saying “don’t go on the world race” or “stay in Madison”, she is much more at peace with this decision.
Her have been reflecting on multiple passages, one of which is 1 Cor 7. Just Paul’s view on marriage and serving the Lord. She felt that in order for her to serve the Lord with as few distractions (v.35), she would be serving with me. She would have been distracted on the world race, thinking “I wish Ko was here with me to see this… ”
She was also reflecting on Ecc 4, and Ecc 9.
9 Two are better than one,
because they have a good return for their work:10 If one falls down,
his friend can help him up.
But pity the man who falls
and has no one to help him up!11 Also, if two lie down together, they will keep warm.
But how can one keep warm alone?12 Though one may be overpowered,
two can defend themselves.
A cord of three strands is not quickly broken.- Ecc 4:9-12 (ESV)
In the past 7 months of being together, both of us can agree that we work really well together.
Enjoy life with your wife, whom you love, all the days of this meaningless life that God has given you under the sun— all your meaningless days. For this is your lot in life and in your toilsome labor under the sun. - Ecc 9:9
Our days are limited on earth, it is better to enjoy it with someone you love, and serve the Lord together!
I think the past two months have been a good growing experience for both of us. The decision on World Race had definitely brought a lot topics in our conversation. I feel like we got to understand each other more. I feel like God had been teaching me patience, with Him and also with Maria. Just rely on God for strength. God taught me that Maria is not my responsibility yet. The responsibility is His, therefore He can do whatever He wants. Until He hands over that responsibility for me to take care of her, I must be supportive of her, no matter what the decision is. I must love her the same.
After Maria’s first decision, I was a little sad. I think the reality of things hit me, and that I surrendered Maria to God. I started being more supportive on her decision, and helped her with getting a tent and a backpack… It was through this process that I think I’ve truly just trust God to make this work, and love her.
I am in a very happy place right now. Not just because Maria would be staying here next year, or that we can move forward on getting engaged and marriage. It is because God is working in our lives, and it’s exciting! I cannot wait to see what God has in store for us, and looking forward to the day when both of us can serve Him together.