She has decided

She has decided to go on the world race in October. It’s been really hard for me the past two months since Maria had been accepted to the World Race. It was hard because I know I should be supportive and be jolly and rejoice for her, but I can’t help to imagine what my life is without her. I’ve grown to love this woman a lot that I really cannot imagine being so far apart from her for so long.

I think God has been working in my heart to be okay with the idea since Feb. She asked me if I could tell her what I think she should do. I knew that the decision was already made, what I say is not going to change the outcome of the decision. It was hard for me to say it, but I said “You should go”.

One of the thing that my very good friend Christopher told me was there is one thing that always held true for him, something never fails, no matter how messed up he was, and that is God. He knows how to turn your life around and manage things.

So it was a step of faith for me to say to Maria to go, and just trust that God will take good care of her. This is a test of love as well, do I truly love this woman? If I truly do, then I would want the best for her, and rid of selfish motivation. And if I truly believe she loves me, then I have nothing to worry about, she will still love me when she comes back. Not saying long distance relationship is going to be easy, it will definitely be challenging, but God will provide the strength for us to maintain that love we have for each other.